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Unconsciously Sober [Dec. 9th, 2005|12:59 pm]
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Well, it's been quite a long time since I've actually taken the time to write in my LiveJournal...Plus, I don't have very many friends on here. lol. I think I have, like, 3. Argh, whatever. Life, since the last time I was on LJ, has changed dramatically! I have 2 jobs, I have a car payment triple the insurance rate I used to have--Not due to my driving habbits, but due to the type of sports car I have :/

I'm finding it hard to keep my head above water as of late. I don't know if it's because I can't, or because I don't want to. I mean, I can afford everything, it's just getting everything started is hard. I have to switch over my insurance wth all my transfer fees, and everything...I can't afford it. It's a long story that ends with me with my pockets hanging out, and a confused look on my face.

If I can get started, and have everything coming in on a proper schedule, I can afford the lifestyle I choose to live. I don't buy much of anything like I used to. I rarely eat out anymroe. I grab a $1 breakfast burrito fomr a Mexican shack every so often, but that' no biggie. I pay my bills, and I pay for my gas, and the rest is disposable income...It just doesn't seem like it's enough though. I want to go back to school, but I don't have the time or the money.

I know I'm going back to school for sure, that's not a question...It's a bold statement. I want to have at least some knowledge of what I want to do in this life, instead of skating by snatching up the small oppertunities. The small ones aren't taking me anywhere. It's the big fish I'm waiting for, but maybe I'm waiting in vein...I need to go and MAKE my big oppertunity, and that I will do! 10 years from now, I see myself owning my own home, and my own business. Having the ability to take all the time off that I need, because my company is run by people under me. I don't want to be a dick of a boss, but I want to be the guy behind the scenes doing all the work neccessary to keep the business running.

I see myself with a wife, and kids, and, hopefully, sometime after that, grandkids. I want to grow old, and leave behind a legacy that will be remembered by all. I don't want to be just a smudge on the window of life anymore. I want to make a differnce in the lives of others, and all. I always have, and someday, I will. Well, anywho, life sucks until you're able to take advantage of it, and I'm good at taking advantage, and when I see it's the right time, that's exactly what I'll do.


[User Picture]From: genocyde
2005-12-10 08:32 am (UTC)
lol, I've thought about the man thing, but then I start thinking about The Man Show, and women on trampolines...I just...Yeah.

Thanks for the words of enthusiasm man. Always appriciated! I'll talk to you later.

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